Day 56 - Been awhile

So it has definitely been awhile since I updated but I have had a pretty interesting time with everything that is going on. This last week in particular has just been ridiculous and not in a good way. Unfortunately it has put me in a bad emotional place. I am starting to wonder if I can really depend on anyone at all anymore. But on a different note, considering before this week I didn't really stay on the plan as well as I should have I don't have big numbers to report but I do have some and ultimately that is all that counts right?

This summer has flown by and there is only 4 weeks left. I can honestly say I cannot wait until school starts. I need some distraction from the things that are letting me down, or rather people. Sorry for the depressive entry but at this point this fairytale is looking pretty grim. :)

Day 42 - Long Week

Well I have only lost a pound this week. But considering that I spent the weekend eating WAAAAY off plan and had a bad lunch yesterday I think a pound is pretty good. I haven't been working out at all and I really need to get back into that. I got really burnt out because I am getting so tired easily from my medications and my body still trying to heal from surgery and cancer. All and all I am really happy with the progress I am making although at times I feel frustrated that it isn't a faster process. I have to continually remind myself that slow and steady means a life long change.

Do you ever find yourself in the middle of something wondering about how it will feel to reach your goal? Sometimes I feel like it is so far away that I will never make it there. Sometimes I think that even if things go perfectly and I get to my goal weight it will take too long or I won't be happy. When you are trying to lose weight a year feels like a century. I keep reminding myself that as soon as school starts and I am facing graduation and more responsibilities it will fly by. Hopefully this is when I will start noticing the biggest difference in my body. I did see a friend yesterday that I had not seen in awhile. She noticed that I looked smaller. Those little things always seem to be so encouraging. Until next time.....send good weight loss vibes my way!

Day 35 - Back on Track

Well I am happy to say that even though this week wasn't exactly my best because of the 4th of July, I lost weight! It actually evens out last weeks not so exciting results. I think that my body was having trouble trying to handle all of the workouts I was putting it through. I think at this point I just need to focus on less intense things because the break seemed to help a lot. I am hoping to start a zumba class with Lizzy and Emily on Wednesdays. I found out yesterday that I really like swimming laps. Unfortunately I have nowhere to go swim but at least I know I like it and it is such good exercise! This weekend I am heading to Jackson for a bridal shower so hopefully I can try to stay on task for the most part!

Day 28 - Ugh

Ok so I am not exactly happy at the moment. I feel like I did everything right this week (minus yesterday but it was an out of the ordinary day). But unfortunately I didn't lose anything at all. I think my body could just be retaining water because in the middle of the week I had shown some progress. Either way it is upsetting. I am hoping that next week I will have a larger number to report. I feel like this summer is starting to fly by and I would really like to have something to show for my hard work but at this rate I don't think I will! Oh well, fingers crossed for next week.

Day 21 - Wow....already?

Week three down and also 2.5 more pounds. I did take an extra day off this week from working out because I spent it by the pool with my dear dear friend, Autumn :). So with that said I can't really complain about my progress. For some reason this week I have really not looked forward to working out. I think it is because I am working a lot harder than in the beginning. Also I start to want something different but then I remember that there isn't really anything that can do the same job as what I am doing now. This week I ate sushi and icecream from this place called Menchies. It specializes in low fat/low calorie frozen yogurt. They have regular yogurt also but who eats that? lol....everyone but me basically. They also post all of their nutritional info online which is soooo helpful!!! I am going to try my hardest to eat at home this week and not eat out at all because the week after will be 4th of July and I won't be eating as well or working out like normal but we will deal with that when it comes! As for the next week I am just praying to stay on track and keep losing! No real struggles yet.

Day 14 - On track

Week 2 is officially over. I lost another 3 pounds this week. I am really satisfied with that because I even got to eat mexican food and subway which was fabulous by the way! Hopefully things continue to stay strong and I can continue at this pace. I am excited about this and honestly can see it being a full time thing. Sometimes I get anxious if I know that my schedule makes things complicated for me to stay on track. For example going out of town might be a big challenge for me in July but I am confident that I can try to make good choices! I don't really have that much to say today. Now I just gotta gear myself up to do this workout! YIKES!

Day 7 - Progress

So it has been one week and it has sort of flown by. I can't believe its already time to update. This week has been fairly successful. Overall I lost 5 pounds. I can't complain about that. I started doing the Insanity workouts and today was the fourth day. They are the hardest things I have ever done and I can't even do them at the level they are! With that said, I would have wished to lose more this week but maybe I am building up some muscles. I hope anyway! I am going to keep pushing through. I did eat out three times this week, but I stuck to the points plan and it didn't seem to hurt me! That was really exciting because its just proof that you can still do the things you love as long as you do them correctly! Yay!

Like I said before I wanted to post goals. I sat and thought about them for a long time and realized that the only real goal I have is to be healthy. Sure I would love to lose weight but I don't really know how much by when. I guess I would like to lose another 30 pounds before school starts back this fall on August 30. I would be really satisfied with that pace. In October I am in a wedding and I would like to have lost a total of 50 pounds by then. By Christmas break I'd like to be down 60 pounds. Going back to school will be hard because my level of energy will drop from the stress. Nursing school is very difficult and sometimes people underestimate what is required. But I am going to try my hardest to stay on track and keep working out even through all of that. For the most part I just want to be a better me as cheesey as that sounds. I realized that it is necessary for me to get to healthy place and I am on my way ! :)

Until next time or sooner if I get bored! Happy life changing!